I have thought quite a bit about whether or not I wanted to continue writing this blog. Since George passed away, I have felt so depressed and defeated. Chapin has dragged me out on a few occasions, but mostly I want to stay at home. I have binge watched so much Friends, Medium and 80s movies on Netflix (Troop Beverly Hills) that I used up all the data on our plan and was banned from watching Netflix for about a week. Chapin calls me The Great Wallower, but I am just sad. I miss my friend.
Chapin keeps reminding me that removing fun things from my life, like writing this blog, doesn't mean I loved George any more or any less. I guess I felt that in starting up again, I was moving on, and I don't know if I want to move on quite yet.
Moving on means that George is really gone, and I have to face life without him.
This past Sunday, the weather was insanely gorgeous. I went for a run outside, and when I returned, I sat outside on our patio and just enjoyed the sunshine. Spring is in the air, and the dull lifelessness that seems to infuse January and February has finally lifted. It was a day George would have loved. He loved the sunshine so much. I can think about him now without crying, or re-living his painful last day. Maybe that means it is time to write again.
So... today's outfit of the day:
Dress: Cynthia Steffe Metallic Floral Fit and Flare Dress
Shoes: Kate Spade New York Licorice Pumps